Self-sustainment...

It has always seemed to be exceedingly difficult for me to admit that I needed someone, not in terms of not needing people to teach me things, but more in dealing specifically with emotional support. I know that we are created by God as relational beings, but it is hard for me to make that a two way street. I am very willing to provide emotional support to my friends and family, so much so sometimes, that I feel drained or exhausted. However, when I vent, it is never the whole story, only parts...parts that give something about myself, but never the complete picture. I don't think I have ever given the complete picture to any one person. The one time I was close to revealing the complete picture, that individual was not really receptive and I guess maybe even a little scared about the intensity of my range of emotions. Needless to say that one event, that one individual kind of confirmed that maybe I am better at driving on a one-way street, occasionally veering off to the left or right to share emotionally. What I find is that it isn't a matter of trust. It is more that I am certain the individuals in my inner circle aren't emotionally strong or healthy enough to assist. Maybe I need to find someone else to include in my inner circle...